The End

Ytd i had a great shock when i saw HER status was change to single...
everyone of HER friends supports her to break up...
and SHE dint even tell me she wants to break up yet...

Until i notice...
it was too late...
but i haven agree to break up with her...
so i say to myself...
ur reputation end here, everyone knows ur profiles now...
who will never talk bad about u to the world?
tell me who?
but GOD knows about before everyone does...

so i dont have the time to call her up to ask...
as im bz with my house works and office works...

after work...
i try to call her...
cannot get to call her...(maybe engage)
call up her friend to tell her i need to speak to her...

5mins later

call her again...
talk to her and asked....
JIM: did i say i want to break up with u?y do u have to make everyone knows about it before i do?
HER: *silent like the nights fall...
JIM: so u want to make it official without telling right? its ok...i'll let u go...its ur choice i dont have the rights to stop u to love me...ur life...ur road... ur future...follow wad ur friend ask u to do so...as ur friend are helping u to love and unlove someone...
HER: do u still love me like u use to love me?
JIM: of cause...i told u once im in a relation...i will cherish every moment that i have...but when the time my family needs me i have to do as i told to do so...

very silent...only im doing the talking...
so i dont want to say everything...

Y cant a person/girl accept a working life guy?
izit so hard to be patient ?
so to u people/girl ,family are not important to u? wad they say u dont listen?
no right?u have to do as they tell u so because ur parents born u from day one and take care u from day 1 till the very end of it no matter wad...

i dint even tell U im having gastric pain , backbone pain and headache again due to the massive work im doing and less sleep...
i dint even tell u that i can only sleep for 3-4 hours and work for the rest of my time...
do u think i want to avoid u?
do u think i have the time to spend with u?
dint i tell u i will replace everything in this 2months to u when my course start?
y cant u just be patient for another 2 weeks?
or are u just desperate for love?
u need 24/7 attention and love?

Do anyone(include me) understand wad is love all about?
basic as i know is trust, honesty , courtesy, and patient...

In my words:

Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. 

Love is a battle, love is a war love is a growing up.

love is not about talking every moment u did for the day...
not to talk about wad happen during u work or study time...

there are more to be learn...
but whats done is done...
things cant be back in shape when its already broken...
a glass drop on the floor...it separates... even if u can fix..there is a tiny hole that we cant see...
and wad we can see is the cracks that are visible...

Apologizing doesnt mean that you are wrong and the other is right.

It only means that you value the relationship much more than your ego.

im alone in the darkness now...

SHE dont understand the previous tittle UNSPEAKABLE!!!

wad can i do without her?

go on my life without her...

im so down now...

my hearts cant be fill with love or any other things...

back to square...

and im suffering so many sickness and pains and sheared heart...

luckily no one knows about my blog...

just few of u i have only...

ben..rainie..HIDDEN PERSON... and HER...

BEING NOT EXISTED I THE BEST I CAN DO!!! 

Massive Sick Day!!!

From morning 12am(if not mistaken)
back bone pain+gastric+ gas inside stomach(due to too much acid producing on the walls )
find some junk to eat...
chat with hidden person!!!
till 2am plus plus...
junk food finished...
go to bed...
sleep till next morning 6am...

(I see no changes. Wake up in the morning and I ask myself,
"Is life worth living? Should I blast myself?")

bring the kids to school...
gastric pain again..
terus come home tidur again...
till 9 wake up drink protein shake and do work out...(like im getting bigger like that)LOL!!!

receive a msg from GRACE (tiru) using a wonderful english that i never seen before...
den i told the FAKE GRACE to back off and let me settle my relationship myself as im in relation with her..not the fake GRACE!

den be a driver from 10am till 8pm...
drive my sis to menara MAXIS to take her BB...

den while waiting...
i reply alot of things to GRACE phone...,but it seems that there is not a single reply given after i ask them to back off...or the word talk to my parents if u have all it takes that breaking up is the way to happiness...
waited quite sometime...
still no reply...
forget about it...

my sis called me to ask me have lunch with her as her BB is still updating...
when to pudu...makan 2 bowl of noodle...
the uncle was shock...
wakakakka...BIASA LA UNCLE!!!
go back to MENARA MAXIS take the phone balik office...
den start doing house work once reach home...

there is much more on the bottom but its not worth to read as is nothing to do with the special case...
thats all for the day..
thx for reading...
after 1 or 2 days this blog will be put as private blog...
ask me to approve whom wanna read about my blog...
will take one or two working days to approve Serious readers...

Be happy with what you have...while working for what you want...

Remember, a happy and successful life...begins with God and ends for God.

Unspeakable

Trying to express my extra feelings out...

and i dont know how to write it out but i can just think of some emo poems...

who can help me?

who can save me from my not existing life?

who can brighten up my path/road?

can anyone bring me along ?

i dont think so..

who notice im alive or existing in this world?

Am i even inlove or just trying to get someone to be with only?

who can give true love in this current status?

who can really understand my feelings?

how to find someone who is serious/mature?

im really in a lost...

guide me out of this road pls..

im scare...

i cant think of a thing to get out...

everything to me now is just a black place with not a single hole to spy to....

if anyone read this...

u can ignore...u can laugh...u can do wad ever u wan....

but one day...

u will have the same thing in ur mind when u are lost...

(FYI this is not a curse)

Love does not look at ur body or ur face

rather it

looks at ur heart!!!

Don't wait until it's too late to tell someone how much you love,how much you care. 

Because when they're gone, no matter how loud you shout and cry, they won't hear you anymore.

A Wonderful saying .

Trying to forget someone you love is like

Trying to remember someone uve never met ..!!!

TT with Team Impact

Had a great time with Team Impact...
Yam cha at kluang station , Desa Park City around 1030++
Found out some new members...

The whole gang here,

Saga BLM (forget their names)

My Pink Garage...

Akira's ride(Marshal)

After that went to another place for TT...
but its a tomorrow morning...
around 12++
lol...
Mypinkgarage and the others are on the VVIP table...
they warn me about the NEMO(kelisa twin cam IDSI)
lol...
laugh like hell...
talk like hell..
joke like hell..
wakakakkaa....
lung also wanna drop off already...
there is more where it comes...
Update more soon!!!

Bwai Bwai!!!

When I sit here all alone in my room,

I think of you And my eyes begin to build with tears.

But then I think of how much I hate you

And how I won't EVER take you back.

I wish I was a tear drop , Born in your eyes , Live on your cheeks And Die on your lips.

Wonderful moment and Crazy People

wonder why the sunset is lot colorful than sunrise?

that's one of the ironies of life,

that there's actually something good in goodbyes..!!!

People say we Crazy when we smile.. 

with no reason when we are alone.

they never know that is the real smile

with sweetest reason with someone in thought...

BGB!!!???

Are u thinking what is BGB?
dont think..
its simple if u know this!!!
let me tell u wad it is...

BABI GEMUK BUSUK for those who know who am i talk about...
althought my blog only got 2 person (Ben , Rainie)
but there is a hidden someone here that i already promise not to show out!!!
if not i wont have the chance to meet this hidden someone anymore...
hahahha....

yea its u...
dont have to act dont know!!!
slowly laugh while u read this!!!

Human=Eat+Sleep+Work+Study+Enjoy
Pig=Eat+Sleep
So Human=Pig+Work+Study+Enjoy
Human-Work-Enjoy=Pig+Study
Humans Who Dont Enjoy=Pig During Study

So Enjoy Life.!

Time To Say Goodbye

When I'm alone
I dream on the horizon
And words fail
Yes, I know there is no light
In a room where the sun is absent
If you are not with me
At the windows
Show everone my heart
Which you set alight
Enclose within me
The light you
Encountered on the street

When you are far away
I dream on the horizon
And words fail
And yes, I know
That you are with me
You, my moon, are here with me
My sun, you are here with me

I'll go with you
To countries I never
Saw and shared with you
Now, yes, I shall experience them
I'll go with you
On ships across seas
Which, I know,
Exist no longer
With you I shall experience them again

Resign!!!

Today i just resign my job...
Now im gonna turn my house over...
Cleaning starts tomorrow!!!

WOHOO!!!

Quit not to quit My Job!

Today before i go to work....i feel like im an extra in the restaurant...
The M.I.T. from friend become enemy...
The General Manager from a mom to an evil step mom...
The Staffs(few of them) are annoying and bossy...

So when i reach at 9am work till 230 want to go for my break...
but 2plus the GM say...
GM: Jim i want to talk to u later...
Jim: thinking( want to fire me? YES!!!)
pass my punch card to the GM...
dint aspect her to say anything...
Gm : Jim i dont want to sign ur card and i dont want to see u anymore(smile)...
Jim : *feel happy but cry and say* Julie i'm happy to quit here.
GM : WHY? Why dint u come ytd to help...
Jim : i have a back bone problem which cause last 2 year and now the pain is back...i have no choice not to come...i'm sorry...
GM : did u consult doctor?
Jim : this pain cant be cure...(walk out and say) i'm quiting...stop here...

Went to tell my supervisor
JIM :Shamal im quiting already...julie agree with it..
Shammal : come i want to talk to you...(walk)...jim ignore wad julie say and stay back for ur job...u and haroon are the most best 3months staff here...pls be patient and concentrate on ur duty...just take another few more days before u quit...its not a good sign if u just go off like this...ok?
Jim : ok shamal im gonna quit end of this month...

ARGHH!!! my head is so pain!!! dont know wad to do!!!
can anyone date me out for a lunch/dinner or yam cha?
i cant take it anymore...

Sushi King 10Mins challenge!!

Today work from 9am-9pm...
Dint get my breakfast...
Maid going back to her home town...
Wish her good luck den off to work...

1st time doing morning duty...
still blur...
den abang basir teach me wad and how to prepare the products..
cut cut cut..
chop chop chop..
slice slice slice...
4pm break time...
dint plan to do anything stupid until...
i rmb i dint have my breakfast..
asked kevin and ruben go for sushi king challenge....
both of them dont dare to take it..
so i take that challenge alone...
kevin the video recorder...
this is how it is...

be prepare to watch the thin man eat!!!
hahahaha...
do enjoy and give comments!!!

DAM BIG!!!

ERROR ON UPLOADING!!!

Video under pending...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eIt9bX12xck

After the meal...

3 of us when to the arcade and see whos dancing like donkey(niewbies)...

this is how you train urself to dance before u go down to the dance floor in the club!!!

do laugh as loud as u like!!!

ERROR!!!

but watch in youtube...this is the link i upload to,..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=og2wmf0uGck

Postpone

My trip to thailand blog will change date...

due to pics not with me now!!

Sony Nex5

OMG!!!
Feel like getting one Sony Nex 5...
My hands are so itchy to buy one....but part time salary not enough to buy half of it!!!
who can be the first rich boy/girl to buy me one?
hahaha...

Standard with single lens

With Double lens

Move-able screen 

Extra lens to add on with the converter!!!