Need You

i dint update my blog for quite some days already...
due to emoing and stuffs...

so this is my latest update of myself and start from now i will update my blog every time i log in!!!



I smile to hide the hurt.
I laugh to chase away the tears.
But when u look into my eyes, you will see all my pains hidden there!!!

Sad

What have I got to do to make you love me
What have I got to do to make you care
What do I do when lightning strikes me

And I wake to find that you're not there

The End of Jim Tan

sickness is attacking me from everyside...
first time went into hospital to drip water...
breathing difficulty , backbone pain, heart beat hardly in brain...

if i have the last 1/2/3 months of surviving...
i wont wish to do anything...
i will rather die now den later..
because what i wish to do have no enough time to let me start and finish!!!

i wish for not existed in this world will come true?