Bored

Im really really really bored staying at home...
Why do i have to treat smart@idiot like that?
if i treat her nicely i might still can drive her around to the car accessories shop to update her...
i might even go to PSE to upgrade my flaming kit and sound system...
i can even find my new friends...as u all are reading this i must say i have less friends...
this is me..
living in a real world but the existence of me is not reveal...
y do they even born me out?
5 reason if who can answer this for them...

Why do u have to treat me like this?
im in total Innocent...
my mind is blank...
what i can think of is eat eat eat and eat...
and i cant even grow fat...
im so freaking upset about my life...
being control by my parents...
although after i join this car club and being a committee member with name cards shown them i got a life out there...
so...i have been out to events quite some time...OTT/UOTT/Auto show event...
come back earliest is 12am latest is 230am...
but not always like this...

sometimes i think that life out there is better...
but i dont know which to choose...
cause im not into work life yet...
i dont know the strategy of working/earn money yet...

im so so so in pain right now...
i wish someone can be with me to share out my feelings
so that i can be more relax...
too much things to think in my head...
i need to release out some...
can someone be with me?
to share out what i want to say out to my parents?
i really need that person...

i need SOMEONE!!!
>.<